03-03-15

How's everyone's morning going???
Well, so far, I have the case of the sniffles, a baby that loves to wake Mommy up 3-4 times through the night and wake up extra early in the mornings. 
Hmm, let's see... my plans to go to Free Pancake day have been destroyed and thrown out the window (I was really looking forward to those pancakes).
I burned my hand fixing coffee. Now I'm just sitting here trying to think of something productive to do for the remainder of my day. Yeah, the life of a stay at home mom. 

I don't know how much longer I can do this. No, not the being a mom part but the "stay at home" part of that title. 
Don't get me wrong, I loveeee my baby boy. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me. But there's something about getting up everyday and doing the same routine, going to sleep and doing it all over again that's a little depressing. 
I need a little bit more purpose in my life. 

Another thing, Tristan will be seven months in three days. SEVEN MONTHS! Where did the time go? Now he's throwing tantrums, he just started crawling, he's outgrowing all his clothes, and I can't get a whole paragraph in without him getting into something--- like now. Remember when your baby used to just sit there and stare at you, observing the world around them. Ha, I don't remember the last time I had a moment to myself let alone time to sit and ponder about the world around me. 

People tell me I should really cherish these moments with my baby. And I am, but, you people forgot to tell me a little something when I passed out those advice cards at my baby shower. Mommy life is bittersweet. As a new mom, I'm learning as I go. I don't know if I'm being too hard on my pumpkin if he does something wrong and I tell him no. Does he really know what he's doing? He's only six going on seven months. But yeah, he does, haha. Tantrums, hitting back, cussing me out in his baby language... he knows.

But when I see him laugh and smile I know this life is worth it.

Nobody ever said being a mom was easy, being a woman is hard enough. 

But, like I said, it's all worth it.